Thursday, December 31, 2009 @ 11:41 AM
2009.
first half- studying, prelims, learning driving, having exams, finished exams, driving test (which i pass it), fallen for someone (but no more), and finding jobs after jobs which literally drive me crazy almost everyday..
second half-found a temp job, results out, was disappointed over this (but to minimal) and one more issue (that's the maximal), but i am glad its all over (phew). still trying to look for a full time job, went for interviews after interviews, but all in all it seems like a vicious cycle attack when you went all the way for it and you are not being selected, and also trying to break through from QLC..
its a phase of growing up everyday.
learning that your responsibilities change.
trying to search for something that you like.
trying to find the one you love.
trying to get out of the mess you created.
trying to learn from new things everyday.
trying to make more friends too along the way..
i learn, i fall, i picked up myself, i breathe, i cried, i laugh, i tried, i work, i meet new people/friends in the 365 days in 2009.
thanks to all i have known throughout my going to be 24 years(oh well, my bday is not here yet) of life, all of you have big and small impact on me eh. HAHA! (:
2010, it suppose to be more or less the same.
thats life, aren't it?
and its time to map out what i want in 2010..
enjoy the last few hours of 2009 everyone!
(:
resolution up next(if i ever decide to come up with it)! (:
@ 12:54 AM
last day of 2009.
no work later as i hurt my right knee (it scrape and bleed) after i fell down on Tuesday after the fire drill exercise while walking back to the office. i totally can't walk yesterday. but i had to so i just bend a little on my right knee. so its like it can be bend a little but not stretch it. oh well. so clumsy me right?
recap of 2009 will blog later.
hopefully i can get to countdown outside.
so my knee, please be well later!
let me walk as normal.
good night world! (:
Tuesday, December 29, 2009 @ 10:51 PM
i will blog about the bintan trip when i have time (DUH, i doubt any will be able to read this since i lock my blog for a lil while).
2010 coming.
and its time to do a year of recap!
how time just flew by..
good night world! (:
Sunday, December 27, 2009 @ 11:56 PM
my sixth sense is super wrong.
just so i am naive.
just let it be..
and i guess this is such a big joke.
big big joke on me.
Thursday, December 24, 2009 @ 10:42 PM
its the Xmas eve.
and i will be in Bintan Tomorrow till Sunday.
i got things to blog.
but i think i will do it after i came back..
so everyone.
have a MERRY LIL CHRISTMAS!
may joy, happiness, love & peace be with all of you! :D
good night.
i still have not pack finish my bag.
and wrap the present for the gift exchange tomorrow!
urghhh.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009 @ 12:01 AM
i am trying already.
but it seems that its not helping at all.
i am tired.
past 2 days of sleeping at 1am plus, and then trying to sleep through the night peacefully without thinking about lots of stuff, and then trying to wake up at 6am.
and i haven pack my bag for the trip.
tomorrow there's steamboat at Ting house after work, then Thursday half day work, most probably i will just do last minute packing of stuff..
till then.
sleepyhead is going to bed!
good night!
Monday, December 21, 2009 @ 11:43 PM
i am
fat.
ugly.
stupid.
damnnnnn it.
i feel kind of _ _ _ _ _ _ _ & _ _ _ _ _ _ _ right now.
:'(
and ohhh.
certificate can be collected already!
and what else?
tomorrow is Dong Zhi! :)
but tomorrow most prob i will be going to town area to buy some chocolates after work.
and i bought one top and one dress online (and i am going to pay like now)
damage, damage.
holiday coming!
Bintan, Bintan, Bintan.
though i know the sleeping arrangement is quite weird/super weird.
arghhh.
random post.
after grumbling.
i feel better!
okay.
good night!
:)
Sunday, December 20, 2009 @ 11:02 PM
i want to blog because i like today's date! :D
anyway, i went Ikea and Courts with my parents just now.
went to buy dinner back and just reach home not too long ago!
:)
and i am tempted to buy a lot of stuff online.
but i need to save up really a lot. so i am controlling myself really bad.
WHEN CAN I FIND A PERM JOB?!
i think the QLC is taking very serious effect on me and another friend!
we are thinking is there really something wrong with us or we are just down on our luck?
*screams and pull my hair*
okay.
i am going to do my face regime.
and then pack my bag.
before its Monday soon.
and sigh.
for the first time.
i can't get to eat Tang Yuan on Dong Zhi itself ( i always remember i like to gather all the pink colour tang yuan into my bowl, HAHA) and i am always the one who keeps on eating non stop the whole day. =P
so for the past 22 years (excluding this year), it have always been HOLIDAY (school holiday in December) for me. but not this year.
awwwww.
okay, i got to stop whining.
haha.
good night world!
:)
Saturday, December 19, 2009 @ 1:17 PM
:)
i feel better.
and i seriously think i think a lot about it.
but then, what's the point.
eat, play Wii, sleep.
thats how my last night goes about.
and reached home this morning at 9.35am and slept till 12pm plus.
i am waiting for my hair to dry, so i can sleep more.
thank you friend.
you know who you are.
and still.
somewhere out there.
:)
Friday, December 18, 2009 @ 12:04 AM
reach home at 11pm yesterday (after all its after midnight)
went to buy some stuff with the sotongs.
alright, last minute buying present.
because Monday and Tuesday i am still having muscle ache but no fever and i got no energy to shop after work..
but tingting seems to be rushing here and there to meet different groups of people.
LOL.
and i am still sick.
coughing especially bad.
:(
alright.
and
its Friday!
:)
Wednesday, December 16, 2009 @ 12:01 AM
i feel indescribable.
that's all.
and the new BTO flats.
skyterrace @ Dawson is awesome.
beyond words.
any friends trying this time round BTO?
haha.
okayy lahh. late le.
shall go and sleep.
Monday, December 14, 2009 @ 9:59 PM
i don't know whether to believe anymore.
i don't know how to trust my instinct.
my sixth sense.
how come i am feeling so different this time round.
why do i feel that you are already ...
why?
Sunday, December 13, 2009 @ 11:52 PM
i am still sick.
block ears, fever, muscle ache, flu.
please go away.
*i feel like a loser*
@ 12:11 AM
i hope i can get well soon.
terrible flu bug hits me again.
i bet i wouldn't get well that soon this time round.
the last time i was terrible sick was in August.
i took almost 3 weeks to recover from the cough.
i don't know how i manage to survive in Science Centre yesterday afternoon as well as during dinner (when i use so many tissues).
and life do have its changing point.
people do change.
and you will feel the difference. and you will be thinking about you, yourself?
i am really drained out.
going to pop the flu medicine.
and just go to sleep.
maybe after sleeping.
every of my worries will just go away.
HAHA.
and i am so going to miss the paintball session with my sec school friends and GH belated birthday meetup after that later on.
i am just so down on luck.
and i think Monday i should just take MC and stay at home and sleep.
good night!
Friday, December 11, 2009 @ 11:05 PM
QLC=Quarter-Life crisis.
i finally know what happen to me/some of my friends now.
like s-e-r-i-o-u-s-l-y.
after reading cleo magazine in office this afternoon about QLC.
QLC wikipedia
so..
like when you are young, when the teacher ask you to write, My Ambition, and you know how to so call write it. but as you study, all you know is to study and do well for exams, and maybe get a degree, and when you graduated, you suddenly don't know what to do.
like what you painted on what you is going to happen to you is never going to happen in real life.
yes, this is what is happening to me right now.
confuse about everything going on right in front of me. everyday i wake up feeling no different from yesterday. and worst with lots of confusion in my ownself.
graduated, more responsibility, finding the
i still remember that time in June and July, when i am not working, i just slept my way through in the afternoon, so i just can forget about everything.. and even now when i am working temp, i am still like this on sat and sun when i didn't go out, because its the best way for me not to think anymore..
and maybe its because of this, so my anti-social mood is like so bad.
i am not the only one who's going through all this. my friends are too.
because our topic among msn conversation is almost the same(jobs and relationship)
haha.
but i guess, its an unavoidable path to have to grow up.
okay. shall google more about it.
i know its quite a random post.haha
good night!
:)
Tuesday, December 08, 2009 @ 11:25 PM
and one more on the list.
all i want for Christmas is to stop having outbreak on my chin.
can't it cure for once just like that time and like my hands and leg joint rashes?
argghhhhh,
interview tomorrow.
:(
sighh.
@ 12:44 AM
it is not i don't want to help.
just that i don't know where to start from already.
its been ages since i last touch project.
okay.
zoo this Saturday most probably.
paintball this Sunday morning at Yishun.
Christmas party with friends from next week onwards.
Bintan trip from 25th to 27th of December.
initially there's supposedly to have a flea on the 20th, but then, in the end we didn't get the booth? :(
December is always full of fun.
and yet i always dread it because the new year is approaching.
oh well.
and now..
2 instructor yesterday ask/told me i put on weight is it?
one told me that i last year look so thin, but now i look better. but i don't think i look thin last year, how can that be possible? i always feel i got no difference.
just that i know i have been getting comments until i feel there's a need to look into this. HAHA.
my weight is still okay(i suppose so)..but is still a couple kilogram away to the ideal weight for donating blood. or maybe i already more than that. maybe later i shall try the office weighing machine!
i think they are talking about my round and getting rounder face as well as maybe waist? HAHA. if not,i really have no idea why they ask me the same question. did i put on weight? if not my friend mom who spot me outside, will ask my mom the same question, which my mom also thinks the same way too. booooo-ness.
:(
ahhh.
so now.
all i want for Christmas is lose weight and be more healthier(as in doing more exercise, i will try my best okay?), a pair of bigger eyes, camera, air tickets,find a job and maybe you.. HAHA.
Santa clause, please do your work for those you can.
thank you!
:)
and i watched NEW MOON at LIDO with Felicia, Kimberly and Kayti yesterday night after work.
cab home with Felicia since its close to 10plus.
the ending to it was so sudden, but i suppose it will be continue in the next story.
haha.
okay lah.
random post!
good night world!
:D
Monday, December 07, 2009 @ 12:00 AM
i don't know how to multi task while watching TV as while as on msn at the same time..
and i still think i can't watch charity show because i would just cry when they show the story.
and i feel ashamed of myself when the girl play the piano that well/fantastic, unlike me who decide to give up halfway.
oh well.
its Monday.
AGAIN.
:(
later there will be only be 2 people (including me) in the office for Monday and Tuesday.
and i am catching New Moon at Lido after work later.
hopefully i still can rush down in time for it at 7.30pm.
and i am so hungry now!
maybe i will buy something to eat later on the way to work.
so..
yeah, may everyone fight the Monday blues!
haha.
pics from: thechosenwords
good night world!
:D
Saturday, December 05, 2009 @ 11:30 PM
<<第几个100天>>-林俊杰
我 把爱铺成蓝天
让不安的你
一抬头 就看得见
我 把心烧成火焰
让怕黑的你
拥着温暖 入眠
我晓得 时间如雪
有时候会覆盖一切
但是真爱 一如倔强会重生的绿叶
第几个一百天 还是很有感觉
用眼睛去素描 你内心的世界
第几个一百天 也像刚热恋
两个人手一牵 连命运都改变
我 把心烧成火焰
让怕黑的你
拥着温暖 入眠
我晓得 时间如雪
有时候会覆盖一切
但是真爱 一如倔强会重生的绿叶
第几个一百天 还是很有感觉
用眼睛去素描 你内心的世界
第几个一百天 也像刚热恋
两个人手一牵 连命运都改变
曾有的敏感脆弱
在我的胸口 你就躺下来别说了
将有的固执冲动
我也会拥抱你安抚着体谅你心疼着
~Wooh~
第几个一百天 越来越有感觉
用眼睛去素描 妳内心的世界
管过多少一百天 也像刚热恋
两个人手一牵 连命运都改变
当守护变信念 连泪水都很甜
and i finally make my way down to ICA this morning to drop my passport application. HAHA. if not i am not sure how am i going to Bintan over Christmas with my secondary school friends.. hopefully we still can go along with what have been planned. hopefully..
anyway, after that went to POSB bank at Lavander to change and update my bankbook then back to ICA to wait for Carol to finish work at Level 5. HAHA. i waited until i was nearly being frozen to death by the air con over there. :( . she ended at about 1pm. after that we travel down to Airport for lunch at Popeye. chatted before taking bus home and slept (again!!) for about 2 hour or so..
Christmas coming soon.
actually its my favourite festive season and yet the second dislike one after the Feb 14. haha. how contradicting it is for me..
sighh.
but i still celebrate Christmas with all my friends who have come up with celebration. HAHA.and as for the Feb 14, either go out with all my other single friends to one people house and have dinner, or not stay at home (like what one of my friend describe it as torture to go out on that day). HAHA.
and..
actually it doesn't seem to matter that much anymore.
but why the more one say, i am more affected by what that person have said.
i guess ignorance is still bliss, am i right?
okay backdated photos.
i have actually compiled it just because i am lazy to upload it one by one..
HAHA.
kbox with heartbreakers on 28/11/2009! :D
another Saturday(14/11/2009) with good food and GREAT company! :D
till then.
maybe i should have an early night again because i might want to have KFC porridge tomorrow. LOL.
see how if i can wake up at 7.30 or so like today morning..
good night world!
:D
Thursday, December 03, 2009 @ 10:39 PM
TIRED.
i mean i am literally tired.
mentally drain..
i just send 2 resume.
hopefully.
i am so sleepy now and then (which i have no idea why because i don't have to do OT ,my friends who need to do OT should be the one lacking of sleep. NOT ME, i shouldn't be the one who's complaining that i am sleepy, but yeah, to tell the truth, my eyes is barely open, not even when i tried to bath myself under the cold water in the early morning)
and getting hungry even more and more easily then usual.
imagine i eat at 12.30 pm plus, i can get hungry at like 3pm, then even after i snack, i get hungry at 6pm, then i ate dinner when i reach home, then i 9pm plus can get hungry and looking for snacks again.
WHAT IS WRONG?
at this rate, i think i will be getting fatter!
:(
i seriously had no idea what i am stress at either.
*ROARS*
i wish i could grumble all my grouse to someone.
like seriously.
i am just so tired of everything..
and it doesn't help when i have not ....
sigh.
never mind.
i guess i am just tired right.
i just need some good sleep.
i will be fine..
good night.
i am going to bed now.
Tuesday, December 01, 2009 @ 11:10 PM
now this is CUTE! haha =P
from: thebestfeeling
life is pretty=no life at the moment.
i am forever counting down to Friday everyday.
and
its December!
Fun-fill month.
and its Christmas in like 24 days!
:)
going to sleep soon!
sweet dreams everyone!
